Pheromone Deficiency Syndrome chapter 40

Slow Love

Xie Huaizhou took Gu Jinyi to shower.

Gu Jinyi didn’t refuse; they had already done more intimate things, so there seemed to be no need to drag this matter out.

Perhaps this was the benefit of maturity. If he were twenty years old, he would probably have cried and made a scene, cried until he couldn’t breathe, and told Xie Huaizhou to leave now.

But he was twenty-six now. He sat in the bathtub, surrounded by warm water and Xie Huaizhou’s embrace, even anger felt exhausting.

He obediently let Xie Huaizhou wash him, dry him with a large towel, blow-dry his hair, like a beautiful and delicate life-sized doll.

By the time they left the bathroom, the robot servant at the door had already changed the bedsheets quickly.

Xie Huaizhou sat with him on the bed, still appearing as a loving couple.

Gu Jinyi fell asleep again in this embrace.

He hadn’t really slept last night, and the long confrontation just now had drained all his energy.

But he half-woke up and asked Xie Huaizhou a question, “Xie Huaizhou, I never said I loved you, did I?”

He had only admitted it to Yan Lian.

But he had never said it to Xie Huaizhou.

Xie Huaizhou looked down at him. Gu Jinyi’s pale face had a fragile feeling, like porcelain. His eyelashes were as delicate as butterfly wings, and his lips were very red.

This Gu Jinyi seemed very obedient and easy to soothe.

But he knew in his heart that Gu Jinyi was no longer the young man who would smile and be happy to see him in the sanatorium.

“Yeah, you never said it,” he replied lightly.

Gu Jinyi got his answer and relaxed his nerves.

“That’s good.”

He fell asleep in Xie Huaizhou’s arms.

The rain outside stopped. After some time, the sky cleared slightly, and light filtered through the thin curtains.

In this gentle and calm sunlight, Xie Huaizhou realized clearly that Gu Jinyi would no longer stay by his side.

The execution, delayed for six years, finally fell on him.

……

That evening, Gu Jinyi still went home with Xie Huaizhou.

They entered the house like a couple with a facade. When they walked in the door, everything seemed normal. Gu Jinyi accompanied Chu Xiaonian to dinner. Chu Xiaonian hadn’t seen him for five days and stuck to him, touching his face with concern and saying softly, “Daddy, your face looks pale.”

Gu Jinyi smiled and brushed it off, “Maybe it’s because of the weather.”

Children are always easy to deceive. Gu Jinyi spent the whole evening building blocks with Chu Xiaonian, and Chu Xiaonian was so sleepy after that he couldn’t keep his eyes open.

Gu Jinyi handed him over to the nanny. After Chu Xiaonian was carried away, only he and Xie Huaizhou were left in the living room.

Xie Huaizhou knew he had no right to speak, so he didn’t say anything.

Gu Jinyi noticed that Xie Huaizhou was wearing the black bracelet he had given him again.

That was a small segment of his life.

When he gave Xie Huaizhou this bracelet, he was already deeply entangled with him. He had fallen in love twice in his life, but in the end, he had only had feelings for one person.

But that wasn’t the scariest part.

The scariest part was that when he fell into infatuation with Xie Huaizhou, there was a corner of his heart that constantly reminded him that the person in front of him was too similar to the one from six years ago.

He remained awake while falling.

It was really pathetic.

He stood up from the sofa, not scolding Xie Huaizhou as he had expected.

He seemed to have been stripped of all emotions in an instant, truly becoming an emotionless beauty statue.

“I’m going to my room first. Goodnight.”

He didn’t go back to the bedroom he shared with Xie Huaizhou, but went to the room he had stayed in alone when he first came to the Xie family’s house.

He had only spent a few nights in this room in total, and later it became more of a study, with many of his personal belongings stored inside.

He walked into the room, which was cleaned regularly, so it was very tidy.

He found the suitcase he had brought with him, and when he opened it, there were very few things left inside.

He took out an old, outdated Ipad from it.

It was the one he had used six years ago, which had long been obsolete.

Because it wasn’t connected to the star network, this Ipad only had basic storage functionality left.

He restarted it and saw over a thousand messages he had sent out in the information database.

Every message was addressed to the same person.

Gu Jinyi looked through each one.

Each one was him pleading with Fu Chen to come back, unwilling to believe that he had been abandoned.

The last message he sent was just before he went into surgery.

He was about to undergo surgery, with only a 25% chance of coming out alive.

“I don’t want to love you anymore,” he remembered sitting in the hospital room, it was already winter outside, with snow covering the garden, but the plum blossoms hadn’t bloomed yet, “I’m going to marry someone else, and I’ll be very happy.”

At that time, he wasn’t really prepared to marry Chu Miyun.

He said those words just to convince himself to let go. He had lost his lover, but he was still young, he would meet new people in the future, and he would have a family.

After the surgery, it took him a long time to recover before he could get out of bed, and he never opened this Ipad again.

But he also didn’t discard this outdated model, and even brought it with him to Baidi Star when he moved.

Now, he was starting this Ipad again.

Only now did he see that there was still a reply in his information database.

The contact was from an unmarked account.

But when he opened this reply, he knew who it was from.

It said–

“Don’t marry someone else, wait for me, okay?”

“Sorry, do you still want me?”

“I’ve learned how to make pancakes, and I can also cook.”

“Would you like some tea? I bought several small asteroids, you can choose one to live on.”

Gu Jinyi chuckled lightly, tears falling from his eyes and dripping onto the Ipad.

He remembered, no wonder when he came to the Xie family, Xie Huaizhou would make him roasted pine nut cakes.

The sanatorium they lived in wasn’t well-equipped and serviced, more like a villa area rented out to tenants. Apart from the beautiful scenery, everything had to be done by them.

He bought a cooking robot, but the food it made was very unappetizing, and it was always the same few dishes.

After Fu Chen came, he learned a few simple dishes, but desserts were always extremely bad, he couldn’t even make the simplest roasted pine nut cakes.

But now that he was back as the head of the Xie family, he had learned.

Gu Jinyi shook his head, not knowing whether he should cry or laugh.

He saw the time this message was sent.

It was when he was engaged to Chu Miyun.

He and Xie Huaizhou were always like this, passing each other by.

Meanwhile, in the bedroom separated by a living room, Xie Huaizhou was also not asleep.

He removed the room’s shielding function and listened to the outside movements at all times.

He knew that Gu Jinyi wouldn’t leave without a word. Gu Jinyi was too soft-hearted and could never become a heartless person.

But he was still as skittish as a startled bird.

He looked down at the scar on the inside of his left arm. When they left the hotel today, Gu Jinyi had asked him if this scar was left by his father.

He shook his head and said no but didn’t tell Gu Jinyi where this scar came from.

With today’s level of technology, this kind of scar could be removed with just a spray, but he had always kept it, reminding himself of what he had missed.

Inside this wound, there used to be a chip.

When he left Gu Jinyi, he didn’t take anything with him. The only thing he took was the Ipad that Gu Jinyi bought for him, the most basic model, connected to a fake identity card.

Sitting in the aircraft, he calmly and coldly ordered his subordinates to pick up Gu Jinyi after a while, without having a clear idea of ​​where their future would lead.

But when the aircraft landed, he felt more nervous than his heart had ever been when he saw his father’s men surrounding them all from the window.

Almost instinctively, he took out the chip from the Ipad and used a knife to cut a wound on his arm, hiding the chip inside.

He sprayed a hemostatic spray on his arm, and it looked smooth and clean again.

No one knew he had hidden a chip inside. This chip was nothing special, it didn’t contain any earth-shattering secrets, only the chattering chat records with his young lover.

His body had reacted faster than his brain.

At the moment he was arrested, the only thing he hid away was a memento related to Gu Jinyi.

Unfortunately, during the six months he was imprisoned, although his body didn’t suffer any harm, his spirit was constantly tortured under high pressure.

When he was rescued, it took him almost two months to fully recover.

And the chip in his arm was removed, leaving a grim scar.

But because it had been hidden in flesh and blood for so long, the chip was completely damaged. It took the technicians a long time to make the chip usable again.

The last message inside was still when he left Gu Jinyi.

Gu Jinyi said to him, “Come back soon.”

Xie Huaizhou now remembered his past self and just felt ridiculous.

How could he mistakenly believe that only the amnesiac Fu Chen loved Gu Jinyi, and not the restored memory Xie Huaizhou?

……………

Although Gu Jinyi was not in the room with him, because they had lived together for a long time, the scent of his pheromones still lingered in the room.

The gentle and elegant aroma of red tea, like a dream that one could indulge in and never wake up from.

Xie Huaizhou slowly closed his eyes again, recalling Gu Jinyi’s smile under the lavender, wearing a suit, his hair tied up in a small bun, his lips red and his teeth white, innocent and shy.

He had promised to give Gu Jinyi a wedding, and he remembered every detail Gu Jinyi had mentioned.

Gu Jinyi didn’t like the trendy space weddings or underwater weddings; he liked the kind of old-fashioned, fairy-tale grassland wedding.

There should be a beautiful rose arch, and the cake should be cute. There’s no need for many guests, just invite the closest friends and family.

Six years ago, he broke his promise.

Now he wanted to keep it again, but Gu Jinyi may not want to give him another chance.