Lack of love chapter 38
First kiss in the darkest moment (Yan X Zhong)
On the first night they were captured, they were hungry and didn’t even have a bottle of water.
Hunger and insomnia can wear down a person’s willpower the most. Both of them were experiencing this kind of situation for the first time, physically and mentally exhausted, but still unable to sleep.
“I’m sorry,” Zhong Qiran apologized first. “I didn’t know you were the young master of the Yan family and lied like that. After we get out, I’ll repay half of the ransom… to you, but it might not be so soon. But if something unfortunate happens to me, I hope you… won’t pursue it…”
He was used to preparing for the worst in everything. So he didn’t want to have a contingency plan where his parents would repay this debt for him. He had already caused enough trouble for his parents and didn’t want to bring them any more trouble.
Yan Hao stared at him in the darkness, as if assessing something. Seeing that he couldn’t continue, Yan Hao followed up, “To be honest, I’m the one who got you involved, you don’t have to repay.”
“But…”
Yan Hao asked again, “Can you afford the money?”
This question carried a hint of insult. Zhong Qiran wanted to get angry but didn’t have the confidence. “I can’t afford it.”
“Then let’s leave it at that.”
Yan Hao unilaterally ended the conversation, as if he didn’t want to say more. He spoke very little and rarely opened his mouth when it wasn’t necessary.
Zhong Qiran vaguely felt that this person was somewhat guarded against him but didn’t know why. Was he afraid that Zhong Qiran would take advantage of the situation to get close to him? Thinking of this, Zhong Qiran couldn’t help but laugh at himself.
By the late night, both of them were starting to feel exhausted and couldn’t hold on much longer. They were in an unfamiliar environment, with unfamiliar people beside them, and couldn’t sleep soundly. The slightest movement would startle them awake.
It wasn’t until noon the next day that two of the main perpetrator’s subordinates came in and opened the door, holding food boxes in their hands. They saw that the blindfold covering the eyes of the two men had been removed, but their hands and feet were still securely bound. They didn’t say anything, picked up the blindfold that had fallen on the ground, and tied it back over their eyes.
Zhong Qiran was afraid that the two men would suspect something, so he pretended to move closer to Yan Hao and looked scared. Yan Hao felt the warmth of the person approaching him but just furrowed his brow slightly without saying anything.
One of them saw the intimate position of the two men leaning against each other and couldn’t help but make a lewd joke, saying, “So loving, if I had known last night, I should have untied you two. Maybe we could have watched a live show. I’ve never seen two men doing it…”
The other person laughed when he heard it but scolded his companion, “You’re not serious. What’s so interesting about men? It’s better to have a woman with big breasts…”
Their leader seemed to be busy, so the two lackeys were left behind to watch over the captives and could only find some amusement when they were bored. One of them held a box of food and rudely stuffed it into their mouths, like feeding pigs.
Zhong Qiran ate slowly, clinking the spoon against his teeth several times, and even his lips turned red from it, looking somewhat enticing.
The person feeding them stared at Zhong Qiran’s lips as they opened and continued the previous topic, “It’s hard to say. Some people are really into this. They enjoy men. Look at his face, not much different from a woman…”
When Zhong Qiran heard the last sentence, his body completely froze, and he dared not eat anymore. He instinctively moved backward.
The other person noticed and started to assess Zhong Qiran, saying, “Indeed, he looks delicate and young. I bet he would be quite captivating when he cries…”
The person enjoyed seeing Zhong Qiran frightened, and he wanted to take it further. He reached out and grabbed his pointed chin, using his rough fingertips to touch his lips, as soft as a woman’s. He even slid his finger into Zhong Qiran’s mouth, teasing his tongue.
Zhong Qiran trembled heavily, appearing scared and wanting to bite but hesitating. If it were only him, he would fight back, but he didn’t want to harm the stranger he met Yan.
The person liked seeing Zhong Qiran scared and wanted to push it even further. He unzipped his pants.
Suddenly, Yan Hao, who had been silent on the side, spoke up, “Don’t touch him. If you still want the money, don’t touch him.”
The person looked at Zhong Qiran for a while, seeming hesitant. In the end, he reluctantly withdrew his hand, feeling a bit regretful. However, he still didn’t give up and suddenly became curious about intimate relations between men, saying, “Okay, I won’t touch your little lover. Just let him perform for us. With your wealth, you must have had your fair share of fun…”
Yan Hao didn’t answer that question, but it seemed like his silence was an affirmation in the eyes of the two.
It was Zhong Qiran who didn’t know what to do. If he had known it would turn out like this, he wouldn’t have used this excuse in the first place.
“No, I…” he hesitated, considering whether to confess or not. But before he could finish his sentence, Yan Hao interrupted, “Come here.”
Zhong Qiran stood still for a while, then slowly leaned toward Yan Hao. The scent of the cologne on him had faded a bit, but it still smelled good, providing some comfort that he couldn’t explain.
Yan Hao felt Zhong Qiran’s body getting closer, and he suddenly remembered his first impression of him last night—his delicate and frail appearance, somewhat pitiable. His tone softened, “Don’t be afraid, just do it like you normally would.”
Knowing that it was all an act, Zhong Qiran didn’t know what Yan Hao meant by “normally.” He was just an inexperienced student and couldn’t react as quickly as Yan Hao.
Yan Hao quietly prompted him again, “Kiss me.”
It finally dawned on Zhong Qiran, and he pressed his lips against Yan Hao’s face. He was very close, trembling with nervousness. However, because he couldn’t see and his hands were tied behind his back, he couldn’t find his position. As a result, his first kiss landed on Yan Hao’s ear.
Yan Hao didn’t move, his breathing steady.
This made Zhong Qiran less nervous. His breath landed on Yan Hao’s face, warm and ambiguous. After calming himself, he kissed Yan Hao’s face again, like a kitten. He didn’t know how far to go, so after kissing the left side, he kissed the right side. The two spectators watching didn’t stop them; instead, they kept urging him, “Faster, faster…”
What should he do? What should he do?
His lips were just inches away from the man’s nose, and any further would be a kiss.
From the moment Zhong Qiran saw Yan Hao, he knew that he liked his appearance. Even if he had to give away his first kiss due to circumstances, he was afraid he would fall for him. Regardless of Yan Hao’s sexual orientation, their backgrounds were too different, and they couldn’t be together in the future.
While Zhong Qiran was still hesitating, Yan Hao made the decision for him. He tilted his head slightly and took the initiative to press his lips against Zhong Qiran’s.
In that instant, Zhong Qiran’s mind went blank, unable to think.
“So soft…”
He seemed to hear Yan Hao’s murmured words, but it might have been his imagination. Zhong Qiran stood there stiffly as the man kissed him, lips against lips, not too deep, just testing the waters and allowing him to adjust. Then he felt a moist and soft touch on his lips as the man’s tongue traced his lip line provocatively, tempting him to open his mouth, like a tease.
No, this can’t happen…
Alarm bells rang in Zhong Qiran’s mind, knowing that it was all a charade and he couldn’t waver because of it. However, the next moment, Yan Hao sucked on his lips, forcing him to open his mouth.
Zhong Qiran panicked instantly, extending his tongue to rescue his trapped lips. But instead, Yan Hao hooked his tongue and sucked on it.
He had never been this intimate with anyone before, and now he was completely defenseless against Yan Hao. An ambiguous moan escaped his throat involuntarily, “Mmm…”
The two men’s lips and tongues entwined,
The two kidnappers watching were dumbfounded, seemingly surprised that men could kiss with such intensity and heat, even more so than with a woman. The weather was getting hotter this season, and a scorching heat surged through their bodies, relentlessly heading towards their lower abdomen.
Just at that moment, the voice of the mastermind abruptly interrupted everything, “What are you doing ?”
As soon as Yan Hao heard the voice, he decisively withdrew from Zhong Qiran’s lips, as if the passionate moment from earlier had vanished.
Zhong Qiran’s mind was still buzzing, feeling somewhat dazed from the kiss.