Evil Love Appears chapter 99

Fu Xiaoyu stared blankly at this alpha who was apologizing with a bleeding nose.

When he finally heard the words “I’m sorry,” he didn’t even know how to describe his feelings.

He stood in the night breeze, refusing to avoid eye contact no matter how heartbroken he was. He could only stubbornly stare at Xu Jiale without saying a word.

“I’m sorry.”

Xu Jiale hoarsely repeated it, “Xiaoyu, this is something I’ve wanted to say ever since we broke up. But no matter what was going through my mind, I didn’t have the right to apologize. Because I genuinely didn’t know what would come after I said sorry. What should I do then?”

“Even the right to apologize wasn’t the only issue,” this alpha sniffled with a hint of pain, “When you went to Vietnam, I checked our DingTalk group dozens of times a day, knowing I looked like a fool, but I couldn’t control myself when I sensed something was wrong with you. I didn’t expect that early in the morning in Vietnam, I had to queue up to get a visa, as if everything conspired against me. Finally, after all that, I saw you at the hospital…”

He paused, as he remembered that day and had to hold back for a moment. He tried to conceal his emotions, wiping away a nosebleed with the back of his hand.

When Xu Jiale raised his head again, his nose and eyes were red from rubbing. “At that time, you had just finished your injection, lying there with your back to me. I knew you didn’t want to see me. Later, you told me, ‘I’ll be hurt if you keep caring for me.’ Xiaoyu, at that moment, all I could think was ‘I’m done.’ You were lying there, sick and thin, but I could no longer hold you. I was finished.”

He said, “I could no longer hold you.”

Fu Xiaoyu had to briefly look away to barely contain his emotions and vulnerability.

He knew what was going on. He knew the unspoken words of the alpha at the hospital room and the state of confusion Xu Jiale experienced when he left Vietnam alone.

“Xiaoyu, you’re right to ask this question. Do I really not understand the meaning of a breakup?”

Xu Jiale said bitterly, self-mockingly, and cast a glance at the bloodstain on the back of his hand, saying, “I know. I just, on that day, at that moment, was so foolish, so idiotic to believe – you’re such an outstanding omega. Without me, in a year, in two, you’ll surely find an alpha who loves you very much. And without you, I’d just lead a life as a good father and manage to survive. But who knew? These days after the breakup, I didn’t even know what I was doing. It’s not just a power outage, my entire circuitry short-circuited. I can’t go on living. Actually, it wasn’t until that night when I came back from Vietnam that I realized, I can’t live like this.”

“Xiaoyu, I secretly contacted Xiaoshan this time, originally planning to find the right time to apologize to you solemnly. And I want to say more than just an apology…”

Xu Jiale paused for a long time when he reached this point, finally taking a deep breath.

At that moment, he had to clench his fist almost embarrassingly to look directly at Fu Xiaoyu and said each word deliberately, “Xiaoyu, I truly… want to be with you.”

As he spoke those words, he felt his heartbeat actually skip a beat.

Over these last couple of days, Xu Jiale had envisioned countless times what he wanted to say to Fu Xiaoyu, wanting it to be comprehensive, meticulous, and persuasive. He even laughably jotted down some notes.

But after the breakup, each unexpected encounter never gave him any preparation time; he was always rushed.

Because, facing Fu Xiaoyu, who had suddenly rushed to him, he only had one overwhelming feeling.

A strong desire became the only taste in his mouth—

I truly, truly want to be with you.

Fu Xiaoyu sat on the steps, seemingly lost in thought, but he didn’t say a word.

Actually, on the way here, he didn’t even know what he wanted or what his purpose was. He was like an angry little beast, deciding to stop thinking on this night and letting his instincts vent these emotions from the past ten-plus days.

He didn’t know what would come after the outburst.

But anger was only a momentary thing.

From the second they angrily embraced, almost simultaneously shuddering, he knew something was destined to be different tonight.

However, he didn’t know where to go.

Some emotions, tender and annoying, like the waves in the silent night, gradually washed over them, eroding his anger and willpower.

Unbeknownst to them, they drew closer, step by step.

The night wind blew in gusts. The thinly-dressed alpha shivered slightly, but right now, he didn’t care about that. He just stared at him like this.

Seconds passed by, and Xu Jiale’s expression grew increasingly tense, and finally, Fu Xiaoyu spoke.

“What about the child?”

Fu Xiaoyu asked, “What do we do?”

Xu Jiale answered rapidly as if facing an examiner, “I’m dealing with it step by step. First, I need to clarify the issue of custody with Jin Chu. I’ve already contacted my lawyer and am preparing to have a face-to-face conversation with Jin Chu. Then, I’ll explain the divorce to Nanyi, together with Jin Chu, to see how we can minimize Nanyi’s suffering.”

“What if Nanyi still refuses?”

Fu Xiaoyu’s gaze was sharp as he continued to question.

“…Xiaoyu.”

Xu Jiale lowered his head and gently put the metal cigarette case back in his pocket before raising his head.

Of course, he knew this question would come up every time. Every time, thinking about this question still weighed heavily on him.

But no matter how heavy it was, he had an answer now, and he was no longer afraid.

“At the beginning, because I wanted to keep the divorce a secret from Nanyi, I brought up the breakup with you. At that time, I thought that for the rest of my life, I would only play the role of a father, even if I wasn’t happy myself. I genuinely thought that I had chosen the hardest path, sacrificing myself to be a good father. In reality…”

Xu Jiale got to this point, and his expression was nearly self-mockery laid bare.

“I was too self-righteous. In fact, what I chose wasn’t the hardest path; I just stabbed myself with a knife, thinking I was doing something great. But the reality is quite the opposite. Giving up on oneself is the simplest thing. After giving up on myself, it’s as if all the misfortune in the future is no longer my responsibility. In reality, that’s the easiest and most selfish path.”

Xu Jiale said softly, “A simple truth, but it took me so long to understand it. Xiaoyu, I believe you’ve known this for a long time, haven’t you?”

Fu Xiaoyu didn’t say a word, but his current gaze clearly indicated the answer.

“It seems that courage is sometimes wisdom.”

Xu Jiale smiled bitterly, saying softly, “I was indeed slow by quite a few beats, but fortunately, I’ve realized it. Yes, there’ll be a long and challenging road ahead. I might have to face Nanyi’s sadness many times and find many ways to make him understand that Daddy still loves him. But no matter how difficult it is, I’ve made up my mind. I won’t ever choose that easy but weak path again. Xiaoyu, I’ll continue step by step, like a real alpha.”

Fu Xiaoyu fell quiet once again. He believed Xu Jiale’s words.

But now, the practical issues were laid bare, and…

They could no longer avoid them.

“Xu Jiale, but I haven’t forgiven you yet.”

When he spoke these words, Fu Xiaoyu even had to force himself to stay focused.

His expression was serious, even somewhat stern, as he said, word by word, “I won’t be with you now; this is my decision.”

His words were clear and resolute, each word unambiguous.

But at the end, in his round cat-like eyes, a trace of confusion flickered.

On this night of autumn, in a space and time that seemed somewhat chaotic, he had completely sobered up from anger for the first time and was shivering a bit, at a loss.

He had made a decision.

But in the next second, there was a desolate and melancholic feeling of not knowing where to go.

“Xiaoyu…”

Xu Jiale looked at Fu Xiaoyu and couldn’t help but get closer again.

He was ruthlessly rejected.

But that wasn’t the sad part, nor was it even unexpected.

His sadness came from the sudden look of confusion in Fu Xiaoyu’s eyes.

He understood this omega, he truly did.

“I know – don’t forgive me, at least not now.”

Xu Jiale couldn’t embrace the lonely omega revealed before him. His voice became lower and huskier due to anxiety. “I understand everything. When you’re still sad and resentful, and can’t be with me, or else you’d regret it for the rest of your life.”

Finally, the word “regret” made Fu Xiaoyu look at Xu Jiale.

He had always been result-oriented, but just this once, he didn’t want to think about the outcome. He didn’t want to consider the result; he only cared about this moment.

Yes, in this moment, he didn’t want to forgive, and he didn’t want to relent.

Xu Jiale didn’t back down. This alpha, although he had gone through an unusually tumultuous night, had in this moment gently moved closer to the omega and spoke word by word.

“Xiaoyu, what I said today was because I’ve seen you, and I couldn’t hold back anymore. I must tell you my thoughts: I want to be with you, and I want to be with you for the rest of my life. Everything I do from now on will be in pursuit of this goal; it’s something I must do. But you are different. You don’t have to forgive me, and you don’t have to make any decisions. Even if you want to shut the door and make me wait outside for as long as you want, it’s okay.”

“But I won’t give up again.”

Xu Jiale’s next words were slow.

Each word was drawn from the distant, sweet memories and inherited from the courage of the omega before him.

“Xiaoyu, this time, let me pursue you. Just like you said, to pursue means that the ending is unknown. So, without any responsibilities or burdens, it’s just that… Let me pursue you, okay?”