Pheromone Deficiency Syndrome chapter 24

I’ll Teach You

The most famous legend of the Golden Waterfall was that it was the private domain of the gods, and wishes made here in front of the waterfall were particularly effective.

Xie Huaizhou always sneered at such fabricated rumors. He was also a businessman and naturally understood that this was just a gimmick created by the Liu family to attract tourists.

But at this moment, he desperately wished this wish was true.

Then he would devoutly make a wish to the gods, wanting to go back to the past, to any moment that could change the future.

Then he would surely be much more composed than now, instead of feeling like a guilt-ridden statue nailed to the ground because of Gu Jinyi’s words.

His eyes contained an imperceptible pity as he asked Gu Jinyi softly, “If, without that alpha, would you love me?”

Gu Jinyi was stunned.

He unconsciously looked out the window, avoiding Xie Huaizhou’s gaze, but he couldn’t help but look at the silhouette of Xie Huaizhou on the window.

It was a captivating profile, every line was perfect. It seemed aloof and cold, but would hold his hand on nights when he had nightmares.

The slight sorrow in Gu Jinyi’s heart suddenly magnified.

Scenes from these past few days flashed before his eyes like phantoms, eventually turning into untouchable bubbles.

“Maybe,” he forced a smile, his nose tingling a bit, “but such questions are meaningless.”

There are no ifs in life, the person he met at twenty was not Xie Huaizhou.

Xie Huaizhou didn’t know if he was satisfied with this answer.

But a few seconds later, he said again, “Actually, on the first night we arrived at Roselle, you got drunk and told me that you had loved someone when you were twenty, and wanted to take him to the governor’s church to lay flowers and make a wish. At that time I asked you if you still loved him, but you didn’t tell me.”

Gu Jinyi, startled, brought his gaze back from outside.

He remembered that day, he and Xie Huaizhou went to Boss Todd’s restaurant, he got very drunk.

But Xie Huaizhou said he didn’t act crazy from alcohol, just insisting on taking a boat, and he believed him.

He never thought it was all a lie.

And Xie Huaizhou asked him seriously, “Can you tell me the answer now? If he comes back, will you go be with him?”

This question made Gu Jinyi’s breath stagnate for a second.

In the countless days and nights waiting for Fu Chen, he had pondered over this question countless times, to the point of losing sleep.

In the first month of waiting for Fu Chen, he fantasized about how Fu Chen would come back and he would ignore him, making this bastard pay the price.

But by the sixth month, he had no other demands, just wishing for Fu Chen’s return.

And a year later, he became very humble, just wanting to know if Fu Chen was safe.

But now, six years after Fu Chen left him, he could firmly shake his head.

“No,” Gu Jinyi’s voice was unwavering, “we broke up, I hope he never comes back.”

This way he would never waver again.

Before he got engaged to Chu Miyun, Fu Chen sent someone to give him compensation for the breakup, which was very expensive. He never knew he could be worth so much in his life.

It was only then that he was sure Fu Chen hadn’t met with any mishap.

He just… didn’t love him anymore.

“I understand,” Xie Huaizhou said.

The atmosphere in the train suddenly became a bit oppressive.

This should have been a romantic date, in a forgotten corner of the world, illuminated by the golden waterfall in the dead of night, they had their own story.

But now, the atmosphere was like the cup of tea on the table that had already cooled down, the blue heart on it was already cracked, melting into the milky tea.

Gu Jinyi felt an indescribable, secretive regret in his heart.

But at the same time, he felt relieved.

He finally didn’t have to guess anxiously anymore because Xie Huaizhou felt guilty for being good to him.

He quietly watched Xie Huaizhou across from him.

Xie Huaizhou eyes were downcast, his thick and long eyelashes casting shadows on his sharply defined face under the light, giving him a melancholic and cold aura.

After a moment, he said to Gu Jinyi, “Sorry, I need to leave for a while, give me some time to think.”

Then he got up and went to the next compartment.

The entire train was booked by Xie Huaizhou, and there was no one in the adjacent compartments, they were all empty and pitch black.

The next compartment was originally the private room for their waiter, but Xie Huaizhou didn’t want any humans, so it was also empty.

Gu Jinyi watched helplessly as Xie Huaizhou opened the door and was swallowed by the darkness behind it the next moment.

A faint protest escaped his throat.

But before it could turn into a syllable, it dissipated into the air.

He lowered his head, feeling his heart beating a bit fast, pounding against his chest.

Xie Huaizhou’s disappearing figure reminded him of the day Fu Chen left.

His body slowly leaned to the side, pressing against the cold glass, watching water droplets splash on the glass and slide down, leaving behind streaks.

He thought heavily, Xie Huaizhou’s personality should prompt him to cut his losses after hearing everything he said.

Who would want a lover who lacked security and didn’t know how to respond, especially when he had an unforgettable past?

No matter how you looked at it, they were not a good match.

He lightly curled his lips, but it never turned into a smile.

…………

In the next compartment, Xie Huaizhou lit up half a pack of cigarettes.

This was the heaviest he had smoked since Gu Jinyi came into his life.

Because Gu Jinyi didn’t like the smell of smoke, he had almost quit, but sitting in the dark and oppressive empty compartment, he needed tobacco to keep his sanity.

In fact, he didn’t go far. He had control over the entire train’s commands, so he easily turned the wall in front of him into a one-way glass.

He could see Gu Jinyi from this side, but Gu Jinyi couldn’t see him.

Just like he had gazed at Gu Jinyi countless times in the past.

In his mind, he replayed over and over again the wedding four years ago, watching Gu Jinyi standing in front of Miyun, putting the ring on her finger.

In the smiles and applause of the guests, no one heard the sound of his heart breaking.

But now he knew.

His choices were wrong.

And incredibly foolish.

He quietly watched Gu Jinyi. Now he stood at a crossroads again, and this time, he couldn’t afford to make the wrong choice.

Because he had already figured out Gu Jinyi’s bottom line.

….

Xie Huaizhou stayed in this compartment for another fifteen minutes, giving himself some calm time.

Then he extinguished the cigarette, took out the cleaning spray from the cabinet, removed the smoke from his body, opened the compartment door, and walked back into the brightly lit compartment from the dark environment.

Gu Jinyi looked up at him, as if he had something to say but didn’t know how to start.

He walked over to Gu Jinyi, lowered his head to look at him, and said, “I’ve just thought it over, and I hope you can give me a chance to pursue you.”

Gu Jinyi’s words stuck in his throat.

“Huh?” He looked at Xie Huaizhou in confusion.

Xie Huaizhou remained as calm as if he were negotiating at a bargaining table. Judging from his expression alone, no one could guess that he was confessing his feelings.

He earnestly said, “I don’t expect you to accept me now, but I also don’t accept your reasons for rejecting me. It’s okay if you don’t love me, as long as I can love you. Your lack of security is not your problem, it’s mine, it’s because I haven’t made you trust me yet.”

This series of words left Gu Jinyi stunned.

When Xie Huaizhou came in, he actually wanted to tell Xie Huaizhou that if necessary, he could go back to Baidi Star to dissolve his marriage with Xie Huaizhou.

But now, Xie Huaizhou was asking him to give him a chance to pursue him.

“No, I mean… I don’t want to be with anyone anymore,” Gu Jinyi explained anxiously, “You’re great, there’s nothing wrong with you, it’s just that I’m not suitable for you.”

Xie Huaizhou grabbed Gu Jinyi’s hand, stopping his panic.

He placed Gu Jinyi’s palm over his own heart, the other hand resting on the table, encircling Gu Jinyi in his embrace.

He leaned down and kissed Gu Jinyi’s cheek.

His lips were cold, against Gu Jinyi’s soft and warm cheek, the touch was particularly noticeable.

Gu Jinyi’s voice disappeared instantly.

After a while, his lips left Gu Jinyi’s cheek.

“I understand what you mean, so I just want to ask for a chance to pursue you, just for six months, to see if I can make you fall in love with me, okay?”

“You don’t have to feel pressured, or feel indebted to me. I need your pheromones, so I’m offering compensation. Just treat me like an ordinary pursuer.”

He paused for a moment, gripping Gu Jinyi’s hand more firmly. The wedding ring he gave was still on Gu Jinyi’s hand, which gave him some comfort.

He smiled gently at Gu Jinyi, for the first time there was an emotion in his eyes that didn’t need to be concealed.

He really loved the omega in front of him. Every day since they met on G6 star, he had been pretending. Now he could finally be himself without any constraints.

“Yi Yi, don’t be afraid, you have absolute freedom with me. If you don’t like me, you can leave anytime, but I will never withdraw halfway,” he said patiently.

Gu Jinyi understood Xie Huaizhou’s meaning.

Even if he wasn’t a qualified lover, even if he might never trust this relationship.

Xie Huaizhou still wanted to pursue him.

He bit his lip, his eyes inexplicably misting over.

He should refuse, but as he looked into Xie Huaizhou’s eyes, his eyes slowly turned red.

He sniffed, like a child wronged, and whispered softly, “But I… don’t know what to do…”

He had grown up, and in the eyes of others, he was even mature and reserved, gentle and beautiful.

But with tears in his lashes, as he looked pitifully at Xie Huaizhou, he seemed to have returned to the past for a moment, back to when he wasn’t so sensible, when he was naive and impulsive at the age of twenty.

He had actually never been pursued by anyone.

Because he had always directly rejected others without leaving any chance.

Xie Huaizhou smiled again.

This time, he kissed Gu Jinyi’s fingertips, like a knight kissing his prince in allegiance, but also like a hunter coaxing a deer into a trap.

“It’s okay, I’ll teach you.”