Deep Desire chapter 64

Extra 3 – Do You Want Me?

In the office.

Lu Jingshen lifted his head from the mountain of documents, glanced at his wristwatch, and realized there were still two hours until the end of the workday. He felt somewhat absent-minded, leaned back in his chair, and closed his eyes for what seemed like ages.

After work, he would head straight to the airport. It would take another two hours to fly there, and the earliest he could see Feng Si would be after nine o’clock.

But at least he would see him tonight.

Feng Si had taken students to a training base in another city, a forty-day trip. It was the first time Lu Jingshen felt that the days were so difficult to endure. Coming back home at night without him, the quietness, almost terrifying in its intensity, threatened to drive him mad.

Even though they had been apart for seven long years before, he had grown accustomed to darkness, solitude, and loneliness. But now, he couldn’t bear even a single day without him.

It was as if they hadn’t seen each other for forty days straight. Every Friday after work, he would rush to the airport, fly to the city where Feng Si was, and go to the hotel where he was staying.

Sometimes Lu Jingshen felt that his dependence on Feng Si was almost pathological, but he couldn’t control himself. Despite maintaining a calm facade, he would still be completely disoriented upon seeing him.

He realized that trying to control Feng Si in the past was a big mistake; he was the one who had always been led by Feng Si.

And he was willingly so.

Feng Si was in a taxi on his way to Lu Jingshen’s company. He had returned a few days early without informing Lu Jingshen, planning to surprise him. Otherwise, Lu Jingshen would have rushed over to find him again today.

A colleague messaged him: “Why are you in such a hurry? Aren’t you going back to the school first?”

Feng Si replied: “Let’s go back tomorrow. Sorry, I’m in a hurry to go back and accompany my man.”

Lu Jingshen was always so busy, yet he flew over to see him without fail every weekend. This was something Feng Si hadn’t expected at first.

The first time he saw Lu Jingshen downstairs at the hotel, he could hardly believe his eyes.

That night, he was having supper with his colleagues when Lu Jingshen messaged him, asking what he was doing. He casually replied, and after ten o’clock, when he and his colleagues returned to the hotel, they saw Lu Jingshen waiting for him in the lobby, where he had been for over an hour.

Lu Jingshen had come alone, specifically for him. He was willing to wait alone there for hours, rather than urging him to come back early.

While Feng Si found it both amusing and heartwarming, he couldn’t help but feel sorry for him.

Lu Jingshen always seemed aloof and cold on the surface, but inside, he was passionate and warm-hearted. Although his initial hesitance had hurt Feng Si, there was a fierce determination to love him at all costs, which was both crazy and touching.

Whether it was the initial public announcement of their relationship or flying thousands of miles to find him now, or even when he had let go of his guard and chosen to get into his car all those years ago, every impulsive act of Lu Jingshen was because of him.

In the past month, they had met every weekend. Lu Jingshen usually went over on Friday nights and left on Sunday nights. Although it was tiring, he never seemed to tire of it.

So when Feng Si came back early today, it was to see him and make him happy.

He didn’t tell Lu Jingshen when he arrived at the company. As usual, he asked the receptionist to help him open the elevator doors and accompanied the gesture with a bright smile.

People in the secretary’s office were already used to him appearing at the company. Shen Jie greeted him as she passed by, telling him that Lu Jingshen’s office was empty and that he could go straight in. Then she went on with her own business.

Feng Si walked over, knocked on the door twice, and casually pushed it open. Lu Jingshen thought it was one of the secretaries coming in to deliver documents and continued working without looking up.

Feng Si curved his lips and approached, mimicking the tone of his secretary in a serious manner, “Mr. Lu, can you leave on time today?”

Lu Jingshen’s hand holding the pen paused for a moment, and he looked up in disbelief, only to see Feng Si approaching with hands in his pockets and a habitual smile on his lips.

Seeing the surprise and joy in his eyes, Feng Si’s lips curved up even more, and he repeated, “Mr. Lu, can you leave on time today?”

This time, his tone was as mischievous as usual.

“You’re back,” Lu Jingshen finally reacted belatedly, standing up.

Feng Si walked over, leaned against his desk, reached out to embrace him, and pulled him close.

Lu Jingshen stumbled a bit, falling directly into his arms.

“Missed you,” Feng Si said happily, holding him tightly.

Lu Jingshen steadied himself by placing his hands on Feng Si’s shoulders. Although Feng Si was joking around, seeing the person he had been thinking about, he couldn’t care about these things, “Why did you come back early? Why didn’t you tell me first?”

“Isn’t it good to come back early? I wanted to surprise you, take a page from your book,” Feng Si stared at his face, “Haven’t you not been sleeping well these days? Dark circles are showing.”

“No,” Lu Jingshen subconsciously didn’t want to admit that when he wasn’t there, every night, he tossed and turned, unable to sleep. Even though he could hear his voice on the phone, not being able to touch him made it hard to endure.

Feng Si’s hand rested on his waist, slowly rubbing against it through his shirt, “Then is it sexual frustration?”

Lu Jingshen still said the same word: “No.”

“Come on, if you’re sexually frustrated, there’s nothing to be embarrassed about admitting it in front of me,” Feng Si said.

Lu Jingshen was annoyed by his teasing and leaned over to kiss him, silencing him.

Feng Si held him in place, parting his lips to deepen the kiss.

As their lips and tongues intertwined, Lu Jingshen gradually relaxed, embracing Feng Si and passionately returning the kiss.

The kiss lasted for a long time. When they finally separated, Feng Si had already pulled Lu Jingshen’s shirt out of his pants, and his restless hands slipped inside, caressing his skin, “Are you really not sexually frustrated?”

Lu Jingshen held his hand, “Let’s go back.”

“Isn’t it too early for you to leave work?” Feng Si’s hand lingered on Lu Jingshen’s waist, teasing him.

Lu Jingshen couldn’t stand it and sighed softly, “I want to leave early, let’s go now.”

In this state, he couldn’t focus on work anymore.

But Feng Si didn’t agree with his wishes, “Why go back so early? Mr. Lu, you can’t set a bad example by leaving work early and neglecting your duties.”

As he said these words, he even wanted to slip his hand into Lu Jingshen’s pants, but Lu Jingshen caught his wrist.

Lu Jingshen was a little annoyed, “Do you have to be like this?”

Feng Si stared into his eyes, “I missed you.”

Those three light words instantly rendered Lu Jingshen speechless.

In a silent stare, after a moment of stiffness, he let go of Feng Si’s hand, as if giving up, and gasped, “Let’s go inside.”

Inside was the lounge, but Feng Si didn’t listen to him. His warm palm continued to press against Lu Jingshen’s butt, gently massaging back and forth.

In such a place, Lu Jingshen seemed very nervous, unable to relax his body. Originally unwilling, but just because of his words “I missed you,” he completely gave in.

Feng Si’s kisses became more passionate, and seeing Lu Jingshen like this made it hard for him not to love him more.

Coming back early to the company was to see Lu Jingshen, not necessarily to do anything here, but seeing Lu Jingshen, who was so indulgent, aroused those desires in him.

Wanting to love this person, physical needs were the most direct way to express it.

As the kisses became more intense, Feng Si could still think clearly. Although he seemed calm and in control in front of Lu Jingshen, every move he made was also influenced by Lu Jingshen

If a line could be drawn from their hearts, the other end would surely be in each other’s hands, with the frequency of their beats always controlled by the other.

Lifting Lu Jingshen onto the office desk, they switched positions, Feng Si leaned down to bite his Adam’s apple.

Lu Jingshen moaned softly, his hands gripping Feng Si’s shoulders, unable to voice his refusal anymore.

The sound of belts being unbuckled and zippers being pulled down was particularly clear, and Lu Jingshen couldn’t ignore it even when he closed his eyes.

Documents scattered all over the floor, Lu Jingshen half lying on the spacious office desk, his shirt in disarray, his chest rising and falling continuously. Feng Si hooked his arms around his legs, spreading them apart and entwining them around his waist, leaning forward to gaze down at him.

From his face to his body, every inch was scrutinized with his gaze, imprinting this scene deeply into his mind.

Being stared at by Feng Si like this, especially in this place, made Lu Jingshen feel hot all over, and even a fingertip touch could make him shiver involuntarily.

“Your body is really beautiful,” Feng Si’s fingers slowly rubbed his hip bone, sincerely praising, his eyes full of undisguised affection.

Lu Jingshen struggled to speak: “Stop talking…”

“Do you want me?” Feng Si lowered his gaze to meet his eyes.

Feeling unable to withstand such a gaze, Lu Jingshen instinctively nodded.

But Feng Si insisted on hearing him say it out loud: “Do you want me?”

Looking into his own eyes, dark and deep, but with eyes that were too intense, Lu Jingshen had a sensation of being about to melt, the fire igniting inside him almost consuming him.

He finally couldn’t resist anymore and surrendered: “I want you, give yourself to me.”

Feng Si’s response was to press against him, surrendering himself completely, satisfying all of his desires.

Doing this on his own office desk made Lu Jingshen feel a sense of clandestine excitement, as if they were having an affair. Because of the nervousness, he felt excited, and because of the excitement, he became frenzied, easily reaching the peak.

During this time, there were occasional phone calls and knocks on the door, but he couldn’t focus enough to respond.

When the office door was first knocked on, his heart raced so fast it almost exploded, his body instantly tensed up, and he bit his lip hard.

Feeling the tightening in that moment, Feng Si let out a heavy breath, leaning close to his ear and saying, “Relax, it’s okay, I locked the door when I came in.”

Lu Jingshen’s body suddenly relaxed, and he leaned back as if releasing all the tension, biting Feng Si’s lips like he was venting.

Feng Si held his hand, interlocking their fingers tightly, their wedding rings touching.

This frenzied madness continued until the end of their working hours and nightfall.

Lu Jingshen noticed the time again, it was almost seven o’clock, and he still couldn’t leave on time.

He took a shower in the lounge, looking at Feng Si, who was satisfied with himself, he didn’t know what to say. He couldn’t even get angry, after all, it was the result of his own indulgence.

Seeing him lingering, Feng Si walked over and took a new shirt from the closet for him, saying, “Don’t worry, I already messaged Secretary Shen earlier, saying you weren’t feeling well and resting, telling them not to disturb you.”

Lu Jingshen: “When did you send it?”

Feng Si handed him the shirt and said slowly, “Right after the first round ended, didn’t you notice? After that, there were no more phone calls, and no one knocked on the door.”

Lu Jingshen: “…”

The car left the company, it was already seven thirty.

Feng Si drove with Lu Jingshen, leisurely wandering the streets looking for a place to eat.

He hummed a song, in a good mood, Lu Jingshen glanced at him several times, infected by his mood, and a smile appeared on his lips.

If you must say, it didn’t feel that bad after all.

If Feng Si liked it, occasionally doing it once was fine.

As long as he liked it.